I really gta start feeling the urgency to concentrate on my studies & stop being such a lazy ass already. Every single night before I fall asleep, I feel like I've wasted my day off getting distracted into every other useless thing & then I'll convince myself proper revision starts tmr. But they just never come.

So many pictures clogging up my desktop. All that tiny little icons w a big smile on my favourite pple's faces - they've always been my motivation & happy pill on the worst days! Having to watch them turn 21 one after another have nvr been more comforting, but I can't help but to realise how everyone has been trying to squeeze their parties into the poor tiny Saturday nights. Rlly miss how easy it was to meet up on a weekday, but now that everyone is either working or in camp...

Many many party clashes this yr due to these changes & it's so hard coordinating time, rushing from one place to another, & the worst of all - mismatch dressings! I have no idea if its just me but it always so happen that there'll be a celebration at a chalet & then another in a club & they just have to be on the same night! Which means I'll either be over-dressed or under-dressed for either one & I HATE THAT!!! Nvr fail to feel paranoid like everyone is looking at me & thinking in their head "walao come chalet need to wear dress one meh". IT'S NOT JUST ME RIGHT?! Always end up taking a really long time picking clothes on a Saturday now to avoid such situation even though it doesn't seem to help at all.

Okay shut up you insecure heart. Time for the happy faces hehe!

Rachel's





Siyang's @








Keathui's


(happily hogging onto my phone & playing Draw Something w my friends! Tsk tsk)








Clarabelle's








Des' & Mel's

"You're a carousel, You're a wishing well
And you light me up when you ring my bell
You're a mystery, You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day"

Really wished ytd wouldn't come to an end & reality wouldn't set in so quickly. But well, at least I've had my fair share of fun & I've been smiling myself to sleep for the past few nights. I was so worked out & exhausted but in the meantime, also feeling rlly loved & happy. So before I finally kick start on my revision for prelims (which are coming in less than 2 wk's time), let's share the love.










Had a good girls' night out which haven't been happening for a rlly long time the other day. Thanks to the lives of a working adult, our friday-weekly was called off & now it's just so hard to get everyone free on a same day. Hate growing up. So we had dinner at Chillis & lost track of time in the midst of our endless conversations & laughter till we almost had to be chased out, not realising that the staff have alr packed up for closing. It felt nice digging up the past & laughing so hard at them, as well as imagining our future & looking forward to them.


Went to accompany my dear girl for lunch after not seeing her face for close to 2 weeks, which I'm super not used to! Thanks to her busy working-life once again, thus explains that I'm only partly happy that she found a job hahahhaha! God I sound so selfish, but anyway I just can't wait for her to join SIM in June so we can resume schooling tgt again!










































And then there's this boy whom I haven't even part w for more than 3 hrs after celebrating our 21st monthsary, appearing at my doorstep yet again w a bouquet of roses as the clock strikes 12. And for our extremely filling dinner at Pariss last night, all I had to do is to sit back & eat while he has been carefully peeling prawns & crabs for me without complaints the whole time. Hehe, what a bliss. And that's my sweet valentine for you (:

Couldn't seem to be able to settle myself at the study desk despite knowing extremely well how unprepared I am for the coming exams & the fact that time is running out with my endless procrastinating every single day. Lazed off the whole of ytd's evening on redundant thoughts & finally realising how useless ranting can be at the end of the day. Nothing got better. The only motivation that has been driving me so far is probably the constant self-reminder I had at the back of my head that I'm riding on money for this degree cert. I just want to get this over & done with, provided things go well & I dont have to contemplate on those scary decisions I have long ago pictured out but still do not have the answer to.

Since when have studying became such a chore?

Managed to force myself into some cny mood w all the bai nian, steamboat, mahjong, banluck, texas, big-small & all the new card games I learnt during the last few days. Lots of love to the pple who initially had other plans in mind but eventually upon my request chose to hype up my poorly-celebrated (or not at all, actually) cny for me instead hehe!

Some pictures from my new cammy as promised here.

Berlina's 21st Bday @ Hillview Green















Steamboat & Lou Hei @ Zm's







Major Gambling Session @ Po's









& My Boy