I didnt say it out because i dont wna talk abt it anymore. I just want to forget. Everything. We've been through this. You know my reaction. You assured me, i believed you. I dont know how to trust again. Its a matter of time, i think. What's there left for me to do other than pretending that its fine and im fine? I dont like behaving this way either. Yes i know you treasured our friendship & yada & yada. But do you think i have not? I took you as my best friend, told you every single bit i felt, & you know it. Im sorry i dont know what to do to mend this & it sucks having to deal with it all over again now. Thats one reason why i dont wna touch on this topic. Believe it or not, i feel the sting too, and tonight was probably one of the worst ever. Hopefully time really heals everything like you said.